Hi, welcome to PC and thanks for sharing.

My situation has many similarities. Was physically/emotionally abused, no support from Mom.

I gave up on having the "loving mom". I went to therapy, had a great therapist who assured me there is no reason to continue a relationship with her. Being "Mom" doesn't mean really...anything. I went no contact a little over 18 months ago, best decision I ever made. So many things in my life have gone so right since eliminiating that toxicity.

I urge you to do the same. Good luck and PM me if you ever need to talk.