I was wondering if I want to pursue this relationship when I can't discuss how I feel. I guess, I'm seeking a friend again. I have other pen pals who are also supportive about mental illness and write them. I like them a lot. I don't know if this man can become my friend yet. I shall see. I have to be patient but just want to divulge my feelings. However, my feelings are not about him but my mood disorder which might scare him. So, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place in trying to not be too needy and not being too distant. I truly want a friend who is my partner too. I guess, it takes time. I'm so impatient and want things to happen quickly. But, these type of situations usually end quickly too. I guess, I should be happy with this new man. But, I have so many problems that they are getting in the way of developing a decent relationship with anybody. I have to realize this point well because who wants anybody who talks only about their problems.