on wednesday evening I think it was (yeah, wednesday evening), I had a really rough time with flashbacks and memories. it was my fault, I guess, I should have known when to stop, but it was a hard night and I felt trapped.

yesterday was just a blah day... " yeah, I'm here, I'm alive, so what?" that kind of thing.

today is slightly better, and I did manage to get out for a bit this morning to the park while my anxiety is on a good level