The anxiety that comes with situations I understand. While it's out of proporton compared to a "normal" person I can understand it. The anxiety that frustrates me to no ungodly end is the anxiety that appears and criples me for no reason what so ever. Nothing out of the ordinary has happened, I'd doing something that I've done a million times before but suddenly I can't see, I can't breathe I can't function. What makes checking the mail today an experience that will bring on a major anxiety attack?

I remember the first time I had such an attack. My kids were toddles. It was an uneventful day, I loaded them into the van to take them to day care. It was a co-workers birthday or something because I was bringing a cake and really looking forward to work that day. Kids in their car seats, cake on the front seat and I pulled out of my parking spot and started driving out of the parking lot and I couldn't see, I couldn't breathe, I had an overwhelming feeling of dread and fear. How do you fight that kind fear?