Anna,

Before my breakdown (15 years ago), I don't recall having any nightmares. Since my breakdown, I have them all the time (usually at least twice per week). I repeatedly dream that I am lost, abandoned, or somehow cut off from my family and can't find them...or that I forget where I live and can't go home...or that I have done something terrible but cannot remember what it was. I dream that I can't get in touch with my husband because my cell phone is gone or is broken or because I borrow someone else's cell phone and have no idea how to use it. I dream that I can't find my car in a large parking lot because I've forgotten where I parked. Recently, I dreamed that I looked into the mirror, and I was full of large, round, deep holes in my face and all over my chest. Whenever I tired to breathe in, the holes would open wide and try to take in air. It reminded me of a fish's gills. It was horrifying.