Hello Frozen: I'm so sorry you are having to deal with all of this. (It brings back sad memories from many years ago.) I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

I wish I knew what to tell you about this. Unfortunately your recourse, I'm afraid, is to move out. But you wrote you can't do that. From my perspective, at least, it's really not up to you to try to fix what's going on between your mom & dad. (I never could.) And the fact is, I'm afraid, there's really nothing you can do to repair their relationship anyway. So imagining that there might be, if you could just find it, is really just keeping you harnessed to a situation you can have no control over & that is eating away at your own mental health. I know you wrote that your moving out would also cause your parents to lose their apartment as well. There again, sadly, by your taking responsibility for your parents' living situation you're again tying yourself to an abusive situation you have no ability to control.

You mentioned you have an appointment to see a psychologist next month. I'm glad to read this is the case. From my perspective, I think the thing you're going to have to do here is to get with a mental health professional of one sort or another (a psychologist or perhaps a mental health therapist) & work with that person over an extended period of time to deal with all of the emotional abuse you have both observed & endured. This is not something that can be resolved in a single session. You're going to be dealing with the after-effects of this well into your future. Trust me on that one. So if the psychologist you're going to be seeing doesn't seem to be someone you feel comfortable with, it's going to be important for you to keep looking. Not every psychologist or therapist works well with every client. You have to keep searching until you find the right mental health professional for you.

You mentioned you've started exercising. Exercise is certainly a good way to burn off anxiety. Developing a meditation practice is another good step you could take. And also, writing about what you're experiencing as well as how you're feeling about it, can help too. You could do that here on PC or you could start a journal if you don't already have one.

I'm going to give you links to a bunch of articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on how to cope with difficult family members, how to cope with anxiety & panic attacks, journaling, & how to find a good therapist. Hopefully some of the information in these articles can be of some help to you... & perhaps to your mom as well:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...nd-or-explain/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/10-way-...er-boundaries/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/lib/15-smal...iety-symptoms/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/11-tip...anage-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/top-10-...s-for-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/tips-to...-attack/?all=1

https://psychcentral.com/lib/how-to-...panic-attacks/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/stren...of-journaling/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/tips-to-start-journaling/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/the-hea...of-journaling/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-way...ood-therapist/

https://psychcentral.com/find-therapist/

And then here are links to 2 articles, that may be of some help to your mom, on the subject of being in a verbally abusive relationship:

https://psychcentral.com/lib/signs-y...abused-part-i/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/signs-y...bused-part-ii/

My best wishes to you...