Yes! I can relate to so much of Rainbow and your post here, LT. I think what LT is written here is so powerful because it is so true. I know for me, I definitely feel on a somewhat unconscious level “but why can’t you save me?” and feel like if only she met my needs that my life would be magically better. The truth is that she just can’t. It’s a sad reality to face but it’s true. She can help me see what I need to find in my “real” life, and help me learn new skills of interacting with people, and also maybe help me mourn the things I needed but didn’t get, but as she’s told me many times as I’ve eye rolled internally that she doesn’t have a magic wand to make my feelings get better or go away. I have to keep working through them.