Had a very productive session today, I think. I was able to tell t honestly how everything’s getting worse at the same time: depression, anxiety, OCD, and trauma memories. And how I’m restricting a lot but it’s somehow not helping to suppress all this s***. I even disclosed the nature of the OCD symptoms, which I’ve never done before. I was so afraid he’d think differently of me, but I don’t think he did, though I guess I can never really know. I admitted that my next step will probably be fasting because I can’t handle all of this and just want to feel nothing. I cried more than I’ve ever cried before in session today. Ugh.