No you are not pathetic Marilyn. Different assessors can make the world of difference. I had one that made me cry a couple of years ago. I heard later that he was promoted because he saved the insurance company heaps of money. My last one in Dec last year was so nice and understood the mental health side. It does take time to settle down afterwards. Please try not to beat yourself up about it.
The truth of it is that they don't know you. They dont know how you are impacted. Hiding how much you are impacted does not help them to make the best decision for you. Hopefully now the day has passed you can settle a little bit.