Is this still OCD or is it another thing? Has someone else experienced this?
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Hi, so I just found this forum and wanted to ask some questions, but it’s kinda uncomfortable to talk about them and they are about sexuality...
I was wondering if this is not just P-OCD or any other type.
-Sometimes I have unwanted thoughts that appear suddenly in the most innapropiate moments (I don’t want to be too descriptive) and they involve kids or that’s what I think. Later after having them I feel really guilty and like a horrible person, because I don’t want to lose control of myself (it sounds weird)
-When I was a child I was kinda sexually active because I *tw*

masturbated myself a lot. And thought about sex.
And one of my fears is that my sister makes the same as me when I was her age, and she kinda does it (sorry if I say too much “kinda”)
She also masturbates when she’s watching TV in the living room and when she’s asleep and I feel like is my fault, maybe when I was doing it she saw or something, besides I still think I can have OCD because I feel really anxious, and I distant myself from other people especially kids, I always say I don’t like them but it’s really just because I’m afraid to hurt them.
-There’s a thread here that is very similar to my current situation, in this post someone asked if the person was sexually abused before, the person said yes and that maybe that was the cause of the thoughts but as far as I know I haven’t been abused in anyway.
-I get turned on in random occasions and it bothers me to the point where I try to hurt myself to not feel like that.
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-I fear that I can do something bad and inappropriate to animals: my pets and harm them or worse, I think it’s related to the fear of losing control.
-Another thing that I think is part from my OCD is that I don’t like to look at people or even breath close to them because I fear they may consider my actions as inappropriate or that I want to engage with them in sexual acts

Sorry if this was too long and if someone doesn’t understands but English is not my native language.