My bad, I should have specified. As I am no psychologist, I cannot classify "severe" mental illness, but I suffer from various, various disorders of the brain. I have very high anxiety, that I can classify as a "severe" mental health problem, but originally I meant "severe" as in schizophrenia where the patient cannot even speak in an UNDERSTANDABLE manner, let alone do research and treat patients with diseases.

I wanted too but I failed to have a good nurturing in the first place. This leads to a lot of problems, from classmates picking on me to me having suicidal tendencies. Not to mention I cannot drive. So you can imagine....


Yes absolutely, relying on someone with paranoid schizophrenia can be hard. And even if they have good judgement, they lack many things, like agility, speech and the executive control to save lives. So I doubt someone with schizophrenia can be doctor, or should be a doctor. Now in my case, I know it's stupid to try to read a psychiatrist's mind but still I have formed the opinion, they tell me "You can do it" because they don't want me to quit education and end up hurting myself. Of course I cannot be a doctor, it's the harsh reality, because I couldn't properly grow up.

Hardly someone who wears a lab coat gets locked into a psych ward and as remission progresses, goes back to saving lives. It doesn't work like that. You're ill? It should be as same as trying to be a surgeon with no hands. Stupid. Shouldn't be followed.

Maybe I have been damaged. But it doesn't matter now. My dream can never be fulfilled. I know I shouldn't think too much of future or I'll lose my science career just like I lost my medical career, but I aim to do post-doc research on neural system.