It’s strange how hard the “just showing up” part is. We are talking about adding a 2nd weekly session partly because I start to lose the connection and doubt the therapy relationship mid way through the week. We both have vacations coming up, and as a result I won’t see him for 2.5 weeks. I’m worried I might convince myself not to come back, or at least have to deal with that push/pull struggle all by myself for 2.5 weeks.