So as some of you know from my other thread, the therapist is moving away soon, and yesterday was our second last meeting in-person. Something really off happened.

The therapist was talking, but I interrupted her because she made an inaccurate interpretation about me. I also knew what she was going to continue to say, so I cut her off and shared my thoughts. We also only had ten minutes left in the session, and knowing what I needed from this new topic, I wanted to go over it quickly. Her face got visibly pissed that I interrupted her; she said that I cut her off. I explained why I did it, and she said, "You didn't know what I was going to say." But when I explained why I did it, I had already correctly guessed - or knew - what she was going to say. I did let her finish her thought, though, because she was visibly angry that I cut her off. Her facial expression bothered me, so I brought that up to her, and to which she said that she felt like we were getting stuck on that topic. But we were only five minutes into talking about that new topic. She felt like we were getting stuck, but I actually felt the contrary. That interaction was really strange.

Have you ever interrupted or cut your therapist off while they were talking and how did they respond? Did they get pissed off?

The therapist's response, "You didn't know what I was going to say" also felt off. It didn't feel therapist-ish. "What did you think I was going to say?" - this feels more like a therapist-ish response. And I swear her face got visibly angry; I saw a shift. I'm not sure if I've seen that in her before. And what's weird is that it wasn't the first time that I interrupted her. When I tried to ask her what was going on, she said that she didn't have to tell me how she was feeling. To me, something seemed really off, and I wasn't settled. So I asked her again what was going on, and she responded along the lines that we just talked about it, so why am I still on it. That's passive-aggressive and uncomfortable. Isn't it for patients to say if they're settled on a topic and ready to move on? And she said that she was only a little bit angry in that moment. It seemed like more than just a little bit on her face, though. Is this some kind of countertransference in a negative way? Because her responses seem disproportionate to a patient interrupting a therapist, and she seemed irritated by something. It doesn't seem like a big deal to me. Of course if a therapist interrupts a patient, that's a different thing.

So yesterday was Friday; I see her Tuesday next time we meet. At the end of the meeting, she said, See you Friday." I said, "It's Friday today; we meet again on Tuesday." Less than a minute later, she said, "See you Friday" again. So I'm trying not to take that interaction above too personally. I'm thinking that it was the end of the day and with her move coming up, maybe she was feeling tired. But as someone who already feels like I'm a burden and should disappear from the face of the earth, her reaction when I interrupted her and then seeming to be irritated makes me feel like disappearing. I don't even feel like going in for our last in-person meeting on Tuesday. Something feels toxic.