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T then said that though I was talking about detinating myself and the world, my voice didn't portray that rage, that I was saying it in a very quite small voice.
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I have this problem a lot. I will tell T that I am really angry. Once I even sent her an email after a session say that I apologize for raising my voice or using the f-bomb too much. When she saw me the next session she said something to the effect of "You were angry, I didn't get that signal from you." "You said you were angry but you displayed no body language or voice inflection to go along with the statement.." I was floored by these comments because, inside I was very angry and I had felt that my expression of it may have crossed the line of appropriate. It was just an other indication that what I'm feeling and what I project to others is not consistent. For me I think this is because I am afraid to show in appropriate emotions. As a child I had a serious problem with managing my angry outburst and was punished for it. My parents were good behaviorist so, I guess they were able to extinguish my anger response.
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