Such a kind welcome from you. Thanks also for helping me to feel free to post when I can - I am struggling so much with feeling guilty that I can't respond to everything I see !

I am falling into a lot of old patterns doing this but one of the reasons I came on here is to challenge them - oh, its hard ! But I am not giving up !

Silver Queen, I do remember the chat ( how could I forget the fear I felt ) and how kind you 3 were - one of my problems is I have a deep expectation that ppl won't accept me and so far ppl have - yippee !

Take care, all of you ..... poppet