For the first time ever, 3 weeks ago i spoke with my T about my struggles with food. except for the first time i mentioned it, she has been dismissive and invalidating. she even said im too aware of myself for having an ED and that my weight (im already underweight) is the last of her worries.

i felt hurt, abandoned, not understood and invalidated. it was important for me 1)because it was the first time ever i dared to talk about it and 2)because food is all can think about all day and it doesnt let me sleep at night. it is a huige issues for me and she didnt get it.

i've been considering what to do with her for the days afterwards. i think i'll either avoid that subject again or i'll quit. im tired of feeling misunderstood, invalidated and as if anything going against the idea she has of me is something to minimize because it doesnt fit the "me" she sees. she is not helping me, she is slowly killing me again and again.

what do you think?