I’m so sorry your t was invalidating. I have an eating disorder and I’d be very hurt by that response also. You can definitely be self aware and still have an eating disorder — I know what I’m doing isn’t good but that doesn’t make it have any less power over me. Could it be worth consulting with another t? One thing to consider is that many Ts do not have experience with EDs or even if they do, their understanding is limited. Looking for someone who specializes in treating eating disorders might be helpful (even if your t specializes I’d probably at least try one session with another). My t I first disclosed to dismissed my eating issues a lot, but then I found a different t who helped me so much. Just some thoughts! I hope everything works out.