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ECHOES said:
There's no guarantee we'll feel better afterwards. Nice when we do but sometimes it is days before I feel better.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Thanks, ECHOES, there's a lot of wisdom there. I think in my head is this idea that since letting anger out is so difficult and even painful for me, that in order for me to do it, I need to be assured there is some positive outcome, such as "it will make me feel better." But it doesn't make me feel better, in fact, it makes me feel worse (very embarrassed, etc.), so then I get to thinking, well, that was a mistake, that helped nothing! So why do it again? But maybe there doesn't have to be a benefit in order for me to allow myself to be angry? That's what I'm getting from your post, and I think I have to mull that over. And as you said, maybe there is a different benefit to releasing the anger in session--it allows T to see more parts of me. And that will allow him to know and help me better.

Maybe being angry doesn't have to benefit me or anyone and that's OK. Maybe I don't need to have to justify being angry, I can just be that way. These are really novel thoughts for me, ECHOES!