I agree with others that you just wrote it! It is eloquent and said with feeling I think and it is not childish or pathetic. Ex-T (as of just a couple days ago) and I worked through this very thing at the end - my feelings for her that were very much an elephant in the room for a long time. I mean I'd said "i love you" quite a bit but had never really explained the depth of my feelings for and attachment to her until some dreams I had (we did a lot of dream work) clued her in in a big way and she brought it up and we talked through it the last several sessions. I believe it was an extremely important (although admittedly difficult!) final part of my work with her.


Like Moonlit sky said, I also thought your initial post is beautiful and explains it so well - I could so FEEL it as how I felt about my T for the longest time. I think that it is very important work to do with your T and I am sorry that you are struggling so with it. All I can tell you is once ex-t and I finally stopped dancing around the subject (her words - she said "We've been dancing around this for going on 7 years!" and it's true, we had been because it was uncomfortable for both of us!) but yeah once we did talk through it together I blossomed in a huge way.... it's amazing. I just had my final session a couple days ago and it was a beautiful goodbye. I'm glad I stuck with it long enough to get through this particular piece of the work. It was challenging and embarrassing and difficult but so very, very rewarding in the end.


I wish peace for you however you choose to discuss it with your T, and wish you the very best of outcomes with it.