I weighed myself and I haven’t gained a single pound. Really I don’t understand how that works. I eat bagels with cream cheese and muffins and cheese and quacamole. I do also eat healthy things but I would assume those things contribute more to weight gain than apples.

I’m constantly hungry. Today I finished my leftovers and then ate a packet of ramen and then a bagel. I don’t know why I’m still hungry. I need to buy some fruit and veggies and cook something.

I’m just very hungry. It’s a miracle that I haven’t gained weight. I feel fatter. Maybe a sign. I think he depression messes a lot with my perception of myself. It makes me want to eat sometimes or it makes me feel fat. When I moved here all I ate was several granola bars and apples and carrots per day. I did lose some weight, all of the weight I gained back in college. I haven’t been this skinny since I graduated high school by even then I was fatter than my normal weight which should be 120. But I got depressed and by the time I was 17 was more like 130. How do I get back to that diet? I started a new job where the kitchen is so well stocked nearly all of the employees just get their food from here.

How can I stop eating so much? I want to lose ten to twenty pounds. I am not overweight now (according to BMI) but I just want to be slimmer.