You have a NP playing Pdoc.... not good. Can you get yourself admitted into an ER for a psych evaluation and then on to a hospital? I know that you just started this job....but with this state of mind, does that even have a chance of lasting?

When I was barely making any money, I qualified for some state assistance and frequented the clinics that charged on a sliding scale which basically led to free (to me) meds and dr visits.

I’m sorry that you are feeling this way, and faith is great for the soul and a way to live...but we must also take care of our mind and bodies.

I hope that you do well.