I am so sorry you are experiencing this, and that you don't have more help and support right now. I can relate to the rapid cycle/mixed states. In fact, just replied to your last question about the Lamictal and dose doesn't seem to be high enough to keep me stable yet, as I titrate up. I also am wondering if the Lexapro just threw me off and if I will eventually go back to baseline, kind of like you are questioning with your experience. I haven't been dx with bipolar yet, but am now starting to reflect about on my mood cycles in the past and think it might make sense.

I hope that you stabilize quickly. I am sure this new diagnosis is hard to accept, but ultimately now you can get the right treatment so I hope it helps. I guess you could always get a second opinion if you aren't comfortable with it. Can I ask how they finally decided you had bipolar? I know they were on the fence before. I guess because of the recent manic episode?