6 years ago, I had my worst episode of psychosis. The religious delusions, hallucinations, and practices I experienced blew my mind. When I first started to realize that maybe the things that were happening to me weren’t real, I believed that it was Satan trying to get to me and that if I went to a psychiatrist and got back on meds, I would lose my salvation. Then, when I ultimately did accept that I was sick and needed serious help, I was scared to practice my faith at all. I still believed but I stopped praying, reading the Bible, going to church, etc, because I feared it would make me lose my mind again. Even 6 years later my relationship hasn’t fully healed. I hate it. But, psychiatry and faith can go hand in hand. I have learned through this process that God uses doctors and medicines to heal our minds the same way he does our bodies. I hope that you are feeling better soon and that you are able to maintain your new job. If you need to talk, please feel free to pm me.