Hey, y'all,

I've been concerned about my appetite. My main concern is that I can hardly ever get myself to finish a meal, but I can snack like hell. I'll make a happy plate, like, maybe 5% of the time.

I eat 2 or 3 times a day. Sometimes, I'll snack in between. When I snack, I snack a lot. I'll eat a bunch of Goldfish or Cheez Its crackers or chips, mainly. When I eat, I don't ever eat that much. For instance, today, I just ate half of a biscuit for breakfast, 2/3 of a breakfast sandwich for lunch, and I've been trying to eat all of my dinner (one pork chop) for the past hour. I just can't, and I don't know why.

I don't have a history of eating disorders. I've always been normal weight for my height. I'm 5'1" (1.55 meters) tall. I've always weighed between 97-100 lbs (44-46 kg), but as of late, I've been weighing 110-112 lbs (50-51 kg). I've never been insecure about my weight, and I'm not insecure about this newfound weight gain. In fact, I like how I look more now than I did before.

I used to smoke cigarettes. I quit 6 months ago, which is probably how I gained weight. I did some reading on that, and the information I gathered was that nicotine is considered an appetite suppressant, and when one quits smoking, their appetite expands; thus ensuing weight gain. However, my appetite has been the same before I started smoking, when I smoked, and after I quit.

I also exercise once or twice per week on average. One reason why I wanted to pick up exercising is because I heard it would expand my appetite. I've been regularly exercising since August 2017, and it's still been the same.

I put this in the depression section because I've struggled with depressive episodes and suicidal thoughts for about 11 years now. Maybe that's why I can't eat as much as I would like?

I did used to have a habit of forgetting to eat, but I've eradicated that. I always make sure I eat something, but I can't make myself finish it most of the time. It's especially bothersome because I always feel a sense of hunger to some extent, but it's like my body won't let me completely satisfy it.

I'm truly at a loss here. If anyone has any input, I'd greatly appreciate it.

- Hg