My day went well. I felt bad for napping again though. Oh well. Took my son to get a haircut. The barbershop I take him to caters to kids so it was super loud and I hated every minute of being there. I had to get out ASAP. I took him to McDonald’s for lunch afterward but I couldn’t relax there either so I hurried him through his food, made him take half home because I just had to get home where it was quiet. I think I just got overwhelmed. I fell asleep for a couple of hours when I got home unfortunately. I hate when I do that. I did try to go outside with my son but he said it was too buggy out. He hates flying bugs. So we came back in.

Tomorrow is his first day of summer camp. He’s super excited. I’m glad he likes it. I wouldn’t be able to handle him at home all summer. I’m grateful that my grandma helped me pay for it. Hopefully in the future I’ll have a good paying job that will allow me to pay for it on my own. I would have been able to this year had I not had to resign but whatever.

Hoping to do major cleaning tomorrow. I’m also hoping to paint the three doors in my hallway sometime this summer. My door, my son’s door, and the bathroom door. They all look terrible. They haven’t been painted in ten years and they’re white so all the grime from the past ten years has collected and they look awful. I have my qualms about my painting abilities but I don’t think I could make them look any worse. So I just have to be brave enough to do it.

I quit smoking cigarettes five months ago today. But I started smoking e-cigarettes instead. I have vowed that once I am out of cartridges I will quit this too. That will be sometime in the next couple of days. I have sugar free candy to help me through. I think I can go without the nicotine, it’s the hand to mouth thing. Maybe I need lollipops.

I have a barbecue with my brother, his wife, my mom, my son, and my other sister In law and brother in law next weekend. I am very excited! It should be a nice day and I haven’t been with my brother and his wife in a long time. I’m hoping my boyfriend might be able to come for a couple of hours so I can introduce him to my family. They are dying to meet him. But he has odd hours at his sales job. Sometimes on saturdays he works until 9pm. That would be too late for him to come up. I’d also be nervous. I want him to like them. I mean I know they will like him. I just want everything to go ok. Maybe I will hold off. We’ve only been dating for 3.5 months. I don’t know. It might be too much to have him meet everyone at the same time. I’ll ask him what he thinks.

Otherwise still stable. I’ve been off topamax for a few days bc I haven’t filled the script yet but I will do so tomorrow. No use rocking the boat, right?