thank you sqrl! sweet.... so nice what you said about me being "fabulously bright, artistic and emotionally honest"

i have noticed that as i get relief from this bipolar disorder, i can see all the other stuff thats been buried under my huge pile of madness. maybe the bipolar disorder helped me in a way, to ignore all this other stuff. or maybe there is more to me than even meets the eye.... can a person be borderline and bipolar?
maybe i dont want to get well... if the tornado of bipolar disorder was shielding my eyes from all the torment inside me, then maybe i want to stay inside the shelter of the tornado.