While I know that everyone on this thread has the intention of being supportive to ruby, I don't agree with all the harsh judgment and criticism "you should", "you need to"). There are many degrees of Asperger Spectrum Disorder (hence, the term "spectrum"). We only know what you have told us, ruby. If we met you IRL our perceptions regarding your ability to change and control yourself might be very different than the perceptions we have of you on this forum.

And when all is said and done, we don't know what your full history and current diagnosis is, ruby.

I do know that Asperger's can certainly cause an inability to function "as expected" within a social environment. In fact, that aspect of ASD is a diagnostic criteria.

ruby, I believe that you very much need to be strongly and securely connected in with the mental healthcare system, if you are not already. A case manager would, I believe, be extremely helpful for you.

Based upon what you're told us about your behavior I strongly believe that an excellent option for you would be disability. Being on disability would provide income, a case manager and other assigned professionals, and such options as supportive housing (which is usually an excellent environment for people with mental illness).