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When I first started at college, everyone talked to me but Jessica. Before I met Jessica, I behaved myself and was on good terms with everyone. Then I met Jessica, who disliked me from DAY 1 w/o ever giving it a chance. I just didn’t get it and grew jealous as she talked to other people. I begged her and gave her $$$, which just disgusted her. Pretty soon, I cursed out everyone else for an anger outlet and even once screamed obscenities in the coffee shop. I also had a car accident over that girl. In the end, I hit and threw stuff on top of my verbal spewing and that was the last time I been on campus and NOT by choice.
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Ruby.....this was your very first thread here on PC back in 2012.....you have been blaming others & acting out this whole time. The fast food place was NOT the beginnibg if your problems nor was this the first time you git in trouble for swearing.
Your problem is that you are NOT learning from your bad behaviors because you don't want to accept that your behavior is wrong.
I honestly don't know whether you are mentally capable of accepting & acknowledging that your behavior is wrong in the first place. This seems to be something that I have observed with many I kniw with ASD.....BUT it doesn't mean that it is Not important to wirk on changing because any improvement will be better than where you are now....especially if you ever consider having a lasting relationship with anyone.
The other question I have is did your parents allow you to get away behaving like this growing up?