I can understand that. I feel uncomfortable with the idea of grieving in general. I don't know what to do with myself, criticize myself for wallowing and then end up cleaning the house. I hear my dad in my head saying, "if you've got time to cry, you've got time to do something productive and useful." haha... So I end up trying to do something productive. I'm working on it though... the whole beating myself up for having an emotion.