It’s good to hear that you have control over your actions and are capable of making better choices. Are you also able to experience empathy? Will you be more likely to stop the harassing behavior if you understand that you are hurting others? When you stalk someone, say dirty/sexual things to co-workers, or threaten to break things, you are causing those people harm. You are being a perpetrator and they are your victims. Even if you don’t realize it or intend it, you are hurting them. We know this because they are taking actions to protect themselves from your abuse— they are firing you, looking into getting restraining orders against you, and reporting your behavior to the company. If you don’t want to hurt others, you can change your behavior.