I am not from the US so we don't have laws against discrimination against the mentally ill.

I am called by some really genius folks in my used-to be classroom... so they think I am retarded. I am not, in fact I think I am fairly brilliant in my own right. I know some computer programming, have interest in medicine and human biology. . It may be my Messiah complex. I will do everything it takes to become a doctor, if I get to save lives on a daily basis.

The thing is it hurts. I am very emotionally detached but I became suicidal that they judge me because of my biological problems. I overdosed on risperidone because they celebrated my birthday just to manipulate me into giving them money. Why? Because my parents, who are old now, fought and beat each other. I was reminded of my childhood. They've been doing the same ****ing thing for the last seventeen years. They are responsible for my terrible cognition, poor judgement, brain damage, inability to do anything at all.


So then again, why should I be framed for rest of my life because I cannot do one thing properly? Because I am continuing my education? Or because I recognized their manipulative intent and told them to **** off despite my extreme anxiety? Shouldn't I have been manipulated so easily? Turns out I have more knowledge of psychology than they do , and hence for them it is almost impossible to manipulate me.

Why are we, the mentally ill, discriminated against? In fact I am so afraid of discrimination by my peers I am afraid to go to college. I am very afraid. So much I am trying to get into med school where discrimination is less likely. But will I get accepted? Will I score enough? Would I complete the med school? Would I specialize in a field of my choice? Would my hands come in my way of becoming a surgeon?

I just want to tell those who hate me because of my MENTAL DISORDERS to fk off. It's okay to hate me for my stupid behavior, but it is not okay to mock someone's mental illness. Especially when he is trying to do good to the society...