But I want to save the world, not for myself, but for the sake of saving lives. I also get to do it in a way I love. Why should a disability stop me? I wanted to be a savior, couldn't because I suffered brain damage as an infant. I am a goner.

So can you tell me how I can stop my suffering? How can I do either of those, without causing even more suffering? Or pain at least. And why in the hell would I give up the selfless quest to save people's lives? Medicine is the only branch of science I am fit for. And I have no ambition, passion or interest in anything other than the limited science I know of.

So why was I born, without any purpose? More importantly, why did I become so useless to the world when I could easily have been an inventor? Now I cannot even spell without having a spellchecker.


So why I have become subject to such cruelty?