Hi graystreet, Reading your OP is painful. I'm so sorry you've been hurt as badly as you have. I agree with your therapist...PTSD can result from a traumatic relationship.

I think just about everyone has been slammed by Anthony Bourdain's death. My son, who is 29, found A.B. extremely inspiring (my son travels a great deal and is especially interested in regional foods) and has been grieving Bourdain's death.

For certain reasons I was severely affected by Tom Petty's death in October.

Something I have read from a French news source is that A.B. did not die by suicide, but that his death was caused by petit mort (AEA). The news source claimed that the French police frown on reporting AEA deaths, so just call them suicides.

Who knows. I can't say the possibility of AEA is outrageous, though. Bourdain was definitely a risk-taker.