Part of the problem here is that you are saying you acted or pretended to function normally for 5 months, at which point suddenly the supervisor threatened a restraining order. Do you see the lack of logic in this? If you were acting normally that first 5 months why would someone suddenly talk about a restraining order? You were absolutely not behaving that first 5 months and then at that point started "acting out" which I'd rather say you started acting even worse.

My point being a lot of your wording in almost all of your posts still seem to play yourself as a victim, even if in some statements you act like you know this is on you, you're still playing the victim card over and over. you keep repeating the same statement that because of x event you started acting out but those events were due to bad behavior in the first place. It's a pattern.

You are not an innocent victim of unfair practices, but someone that on some level seems to want to change but at the same time there is something that keeps you from really accepting that you need to. You can't have it both ways. You can't still blame circumstances, your illness, your bosses, coworkers or anything else and also expect to change your behavior. One cannot serve two masters or put more plainly, be the victim where everything around you is to blame AND be responsible for your actions. The two ideas will fight, and you'll vacillate as you are doing here in this and every other thread you've posted.

Choose to accept you're responsible for your behavior and that the way others are treating you (employers) is a result of that, period.