Hello brokenAF: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

I'm sorry you are dealing with the aftermath of this sad experience. Here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of how to mend a broken heart:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-tip...-broken-heart/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/12-way...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/chang...-broken-heart/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/try-th...-broken-heart/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/unpack...our-body-heal/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/learni...dium=popular17

One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the coping with emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/coping-emotions/

My best wishes to you...