Had trauma T today. Told her about staying in the house for another year. She said we'll do EMDR on some of the abuse so I can "reframe" my feelings. I can only put so much lipstick on this pig, and the lips are really red now. And my husband's brain fog and exhaustion from lack of sleep and med side effects isn't helping.

Plus she mentioned going gluten-free and sugar-free. The latter I can understand, but the former makes me want to eat a lot of whole-wheat spaghetti--I'm doing that tonight because I want comfort food.

I'm very depressed about all this.