I actually did the same thing for a different reason. I didn't want to stay in the same class level as my parents & thought education & a professional career was the answer because I refused to depend on marrying someone to get me out of where I was growing up. Thank you "I can do it myself" was always my motto. My dad was against me getting a degree but like normal I blew off their thinking & went for it. It was never because of a need to be accepted except maybe by the higher class people than basically kept my parents at arms distance. I didn't get ut until a few years ago that it wasn't their education level but it was my dad's behavior....but that is a different story & issue.

That behavior is NOT a mental health issue.

Childhood Emotional Neglect is not a mental illness but it can definitely create the environment that is the foundation for thinking like that to be formed.

You might look into the CEN forum here & watch some of the videos to see if any of it fits your childhood experience.

This whole thing about understanding our past & how it relates to the present is like one huge jig saw puzzle....understanding pieces from all over coming together to make sense out of it. My T called it integration (though not related to DID integration of alters). It can give us lots of possible answers to the "why questions"