Can you use your phone to get on PC and take some long bathroom breaks? When I went back to work after being on disability, I did that to chat with my friends on PC and get support when I needed it. I also had a few members that I had exchanged Skype contacts with and could communicate with them there. I would take like 10 minute restroom breaks at a secluded restroom, and take a few minutes to check in and chat.

Also, you could request a reasonable accommodation of being able to use PC while at work as it would qualify under talking with a friend or therapist when you find you need some support during the day. As long as it's contained, like not all day, just like 5 minutes here or there, it would be a reasonable request.

When I went back to work after disability, both times, I felt very much like you do now. But you will get used to it. You can do this, Golden_Eve. You just need to get into the swing of it. It's a new role, so there will be a learning curve. You might feel less anxious if you just acknowledge that and, when you find you don't know something, just make a note of it to go look it up. And if you get asked something you don't know, just say, "I'm not sure off the top of my head; I will get back to you by the end of the day" or "Give me a bit to think on that and get right back to you." Just make sure you follow up. I use that response ALL the time. My clients all find me very knowledgeable but there's always stuff I don't know. I can't possibly know EVERYTHING, even as an expert in this field.

I think you are expecting too much of yourself. Calm down.

Seesaw