Ugh. Remember when I said I hope unemployment doesn’t ask for the money back? That’s exactly what they did. They think I was working full time until the end of the school year even though I explained that was not the case. If I was why was my insurance cut off at the end of May? Riddle me THAT. ****ing government. Can’t get anything right. I got a letter saying I was approved to start getting payments July 9 but WE WILL JUST SEE ABOUT THAT.

Been in a low mood yesterday and today. Spent most of the day in bed both days. My boyfriend came over today but when he left at noon I just stayed in bed until 4:50pm when I had to go get my son from summer camp. It could be because my wedding anniversary was Monday. We would have been married seven years. I’ve been missing my husband more rather than being enraged by him. I don’t know if it’s because I have a new boyfriend now or what. But sometimes I just wish he were still here. I really like my boyfriend and could even see myself loving him in the future but still, he will never be a father to my son. My son is too old to have someone swoop in and be a father. I wish my son didn’t have to grow up fatherless like I did.

Sigh. I hope my mood picks up. I’m sure it will. My son might be sick yet again. If he has strep again I’m gonna have to take him to an ENT. This will be the third time in three weeks. An ongoing case. I’m supposed to have a bbq on Saturday but I can’t take him if he’s sick. I will be very disappointed if I can’t go.

I better fill my scripts tomorrow. I will run out of lamictal on Saturday. I keep forgetting to do it. I’m really going to try to remember tomorrow.