I said I'd had this idea. Did he remember how I said I had this voicemail from ex-MC from a few years ago that was really caring that I listened to sometimes in the past? He said yes. I said I'd checked, it was still on my phone. I hadn't listened to it in over 6 months, maybe closer to a year. He seemed surprised. I said I was thinking maybe I could listen to it in session with him, like to kind of process it?

T: "What would you hope to get out of that?" Me: "I'm not sure, maybe to process some of the feelings around how it felt like he cared so much then, and how that seemed to change?" T: Hm. Me: "Or, I don't know, in some pathetic way, to be like, 'See? He really did care about me!' Not that I think you don't believe that..." T: "Explain to me more why you want to listen to it here." Me: "Because I haven't heard it in a long time and don't really want to listen to it alone? Like I want support with it?" T: "Hm" He seemed to be pushing back so much against it that I sadly dropped the idea. Even though it had been one of my plans for session.