It is very normal in those of us who lived through CEN. I struggled with it too. My mother and two older sisters trained me to fail and convincingly brainwashed me into believing I was worthless. I had to work hard to shed that. Also, good for you that you see that! Recognizing where we are off track helps us in so many different ways. We can make different choices, better choices.

Please, bring it up in your therapy.