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yellow_fleurs · Jun 28, 2018, 08:12 AM

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Originally Posted by cashart10

I do this exact thing when I am manic...purely manic. It’s like the feelings are so intense that I

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want to carve things into my skin and walls. In fact, I have carved things into both my skin and my walls. It is a sign that I am very unwell! I also have the exact same suicidal thoughts as you when I am manic. And, like you, I feel like I wouldn’t actually do it.

in fact, the thoughts (or impulses rather) don’t even cause me strife. It’s almost like my brain just misfires intensely for a few seconds then moves on. That’s my experience. I hope it helps some.

Yeah it does kind of feel like my brain is misfiring for a second, then moving on. Like rage or self destructive impulses for a moment. I have had similar impulses to what you describe, but have so far been able to override them with the less impulsive side of my brain, but it's hard. I have punched myself or other things without much warning from my brain recently, though. Thanks for responding!