You seem to play two roles: 1, the helpless, crying character who cant even listen to a voicemail by herself for fear of the pain. 2, a kind of superior, conniving character who insists on an apology when her feelings are hurt. But they are both like characters in a play - who is the real person? What are your true feelings? I think that is what your t is trying to get at. Like when he asks you why you want to listen to the vm. If you have already predicted a scenario, maybe thats not therapy.