The latest experience--the perfume and the mall--was a BIG deciding factor, but also, she took into account some other prior history from back when I had the initial MDD dx in 2006, how I reacted while on those meds and some events from that point. At least, that is how I suspect. She was up front initially to say that she was not a "med pusher" and call it done, and you know there are some out there like that.....or, if you didn't, there are some out there like that. Throw the kitchen sink in meds at you and try to pick up the pieces later.

Thanks for your encouragement. I really appreciate it. It has really been tough.