I'm so anxious right now! I tried taking a walk outside. I tried a guided imagery meditation but I can't lie down because of my sciatica. I called friends. I put cold water on my face.

I'm supposedly starting Savella tomorrow but I'm anxious about that too. My therapist is on vacation. I'm doing slow breathing. Helps a little. I'm depressed about my physical health. I wish I could die but I don't want to die. I just want to feel better!! I have too many doctors and they have different opinions! I'm so confused!! And miserable. Can anyone help? Thank you.