In session today, I experienced a micro epiphany, and I hope I can hold on to it. For all you do not express affection and caring in words and have some of the strictest boundaries going, I realized that your constancy about being there every appointment and not taking time off next week for the holiday actually is steadfast. You haven't missed a 2x a week session since one in January, and today you closed the window even though it is hot outside because you said you want to really, really listen. I have asked you a few times in tears if you even have skin in the game, if you even care bc you empower/coax me into telling secrets, and I end up in floods of tears when I am not typically a crier. You are not one to bend in many ways to emotions- you never let me say longer, you never check on me even though you once said you were worried all weekend after the fact. After LT's T brought up Linked In, I tried you out- hehe you were like nice try I do not do social media with my patients. I sometimes take the sum-total of your strictness as you not caring. I wonder though if that is overlooking how there you are, how constant in your there ness you are when you say you will be.