LT

You are brave. I could never discuss stuff so bluntly with my t. Especially if he reacted not so good before. I think it's great you wanna look into more ways to cope aside emailing. I've done that. I made a list. Even small stuff like watch a funny movie. Its a big list but really helps

I kinda figured you had sexual thoughts when I read you brought up the lady thing. Good you could be honest and he handled it well. My t once told me...not for the same reason....but the same issue that every one has sexual fantasies. It's true. Even our therapists do as weird as that may be to think of

I'm always impressed at your memory of what was said etc
Anyway glad it went well. Hope you are able to get a good list of alternatives to email and don't fret on the sex thing. Likely has nothing to do with him. Maybe issues in your marraige or something idk. I tend not to read to much into dreams or fantasy. Sometimes our minds are just silly