I feel like I'm imploding, and I can see it happening, but I don't know what to do. What's ironic is I should, it's what I do, I help others find ways to express themselves and cope, but I can't do it for myself. I feel so alone and hopeless, like nothing in my life will lead to anything good and that my life is a waste right now. I have no one to talk to. I would normally press a person to find someone they think they might be able to talk to, if they can, and they often think of someone, so I encourage them to try, but I can't even do the same.

Getting a Master's degree doesn't make me feel accomplished, it just reminds me that I have no ability to even figure out how to find a job, so I'd be stuck with huge debt and no future. I mean, I don't even feel good about the way I'm getting it, I just feel embarrassed, no matter what anyone tells me.

I keep comparing myself to this one person I know (though I'm pretty sure I compare myself to a lot of people, as they are all successful and have friends and relationships), and I think I'm jealous of them, they're doing everything right and I can't even talk to them about how I feel like I'm doing everything wrong.

Have an amazing volunteering position that helps people and has prospects for growth doesn't make me feel good. I like it, I like helping people, but I still feel lost.

No relationships, no friends, I'm stuck living with my mom because I'm terrible at life.

I removed more than half of the people I had on my facebook, I removed most of the pages I followed, and I tried to put everyone on snooze just so I could be more disconnected. It's like another me is controlling this. I don't want to do these things, I want to feel better, but I can't stop.

I guess I'm done, so I don't make it too long. It's been a long time since I've posted on here, but I have no one to talk to, I can't even use the service I work for because I've used them before, it would be frowned upon (mainly by me, they wouldn't know).

I just wanted to express myself somewhere.