I'm tired of having to lie about how I feel. I'm okay very rarely and I'm often depressed. But I keep it on the inside because I can't let it show. I have to be the strong one in my life because if I'm not then others worry about me and I can't stand that. They treat me like I'm glass and I'll break at any moment. I used to be the strong one. I was the person I wanted to be. Happy, sorta popular, good friends, love in my life. Then it all changed. Mind you I've always suffered from depression. When I was a kid I just never talked about it. Now it seems to be all I can talk about. I just don't see a life worth being happy about. All I see are broken dreams, lies and lost memories of a time that I had the world at my grasp. I know I'm young but I feel that my best times are behind me. I feel like things are never going to get better. I've been like this for five years. I mean I've had good times. I've had moments where I thought things were going to get better. I've tried many med combos, and felt better but then it got right back to where I was. I just wish I was where I was back then. Happy with the way my life was going with people I could talk to about anything. Not having to hide who I am and my feelings and thoughts.