Not sexually or romantically, just so hard to explain.

I once gave her a hug. Then after realizing that it was inappropriate. I felt really passionate about telling her why I did it, but apologized instead over the phone. She told me it's OK and she could see that I was in a really good mood that day, but she said I was "all over the place" and I have to see her tomorrow, but....I hate it when I can't find the words to describe how I feel.

I know she's married with children, but she's like the type of friend I would have had, in the past.

I probably won't get a response tonight, but I'm starting to get anxious about the whole appointment tomorrow morning.

Oh whatever, I'll buy her some flowers.